THANK YOU

How about getting off of these antibiotics
How about stopping eating when I'm filled up
How about them transparent dangling carrots
How about that ever elusive kudo

Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence

How about me not blaming you for everything
How about me enjoying the moment for once
How about how good it feels to finally forgive you
How about grieving it all one at a time

Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence

The moment I let go of it was The moment I got more than I could handle
The moment I jumped off of it was The moment I touched down

How about no longer being masochistic
How about remembering your divinity
How about unabashedly bawling your eyes out
How about not equating death with stopping

Thank you India
Thank you providence
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you nothingness
Thank you clarity
Thank you thank you silence

READ MORE

People need to read more.. Ok .. I need to read more .. I completely believe that if you read well .. then you can faff your way through any situation .. .. you can never feel bored .. you can never feel left out...

but most importantly... you're perceived as intelligent.... I feel left out so bloody often because i didn't read enough ... And the feeling just gets so depressing because people are discussing articles, books, magazines, stories that you didn't bother to glance at.. Right now there's this 'intelligent' conversation about kids and how their breeding and their ... oh some other smart words are being used .. are turning them into brats.. Off course 'statistics' and 'quotes' from books of all kinds are being thrown in .. so poor me .. feeling left out and ignored...
So now .. its a resolution.. READ... READ... AND READ MORE ...

NATION BUILDING????

Since im inspired.. here goes.. a few stray thoughts (( in between the stupid work I'm doing in office)).
Last week, a school in the neighbourhood invited me as a guest (( I'm still reeling under that shock)). The reason was the students wanted to interact with a journalist and understand what it takes to be one ... hahahahaha. They asked me to come over and there i was .. with 3 years experience in my kitty most of which i spent hating it, and a brand name attached as experience ( a silly tabloid and a poorly rated news channel) i had to share my gyaan.

Oh the questions the kids asked .. So cute, naive, gullible and innocent.. and Intelligent too... They held journalism and journalists in such high esteem. Sample this question i was asked. Do you agree Journalists play a key role in nation building??? It made me wanna cringe. Such a noble thought. What do you tell a 14 year old. What do you tell them to convince them that yes journalism is related to nation buildng (( even though i have a hard time convincing myself)). Then came the other questions. IF you're stuck in waist deep water how will you still report? If your family or your life is in danger what will you do. Will it be work first and family later or vice versa. What is the most difficult part of reportng in a riot situation.

Nice questions from the 13-14 year olds. So most of the time i was on stage i was thinking ..ok .. how do i tell them nice things about journalism. How do i hide the cynicism i feel. How do i make it relevant for them. One and a half hour i spoke to them. Fighting my own demons while painting a beautiful picture for them. I bet Journalism and Journalists had notched a few places higher after my talk ... I'm proud of me..

BACK

Everytime i read other blogs I get inspired to come back to this space and show off my writing skills too( and ya maybe pen a few thoughts). But that inspiration is so short lived. I mean look at the last time i came here. More than 2 months ago. Oh i have a new home now... quite nice actually... and a new job too.. So life has kinda turned out good for me ...