I Hate Me

I wake up feeling sad and morose and negative every morning. Every single day I wake up feeling like that. Did every writer/journalist/actor feel like I did. While my friends think it’s a phase that everyone goes through I have my doubts. Could the ‘phase’ last this long. Why was I feeling incompetent and useless all the time. I want to give up my job. I want to try something new AGAIN. I want to wake up happy and smiling. Then why don’t I do it? Its because I’m afraid. I’m afraid because im beginning to realise I’m not cut out to do the job I’m doing. I’m afraid of people getting to know about the same. I made one career mistake, I couldn’t be making another one so soon. What will everyone say? What will everyone think of me?