I Hate Me

I wake up feeling sad and morose and negative every morning. Every single day I wake up feeling like that. Did every writer/journalist/actor feel like I did. While my friends think it’s a phase that everyone goes through I have my doubts. Could the ‘phase’ last this long. Why was I feeling incompetent and useless all the time. I want to give up my job. I want to try something new AGAIN. I want to wake up happy and smiling. Then why don’t I do it? Its because I’m afraid. I’m afraid because im beginning to realise I’m not cut out to do the job I’m doing. I’m afraid of people getting to know about the same. I made one career mistake, I couldn’t be making another one so soon. What will everyone say? What will everyone think of me?

I LOVE HATE Mail

A Hate Mail I got .... It made me happy .. atleast some one was reacting to what i was writing ...
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Do you know what you are writing, I think you should spend more time in reading about what's happening in world rather than sticking to this topic. I know you hate Shiv Sena because Shiv Sena is for Hindus and we don't tolerate indecency and moreover we want our children to learn and respect our rich culture, rather than imitating or learning some thing not nice.


I like reporters writing articles like "self improvement, learn good things from other" which can benefit young generation, not damn writing about
"Valentine day" which will not give anything.

I have been to Mumbai just three months ago, I was sick and tired watching boring programs in TV and reading boring articles in paper written by people like you, who seldom read "BBCNews/CNN/FoxNew" or watch foreign programs. Other than "Naach ganna" , "Nautanki" and showing boy's wearing girly clothes nothing new I saw on TV. What can the masses learn or read when they have great reporter like you.

Don't criticise Shiv Sena, because people like you should sit down in front of mirror and ask some questions "am I a good reporter, how can I attract more readers, what can I give to readers others than wasting their time by writing crap".

Thank GOD you are in Mumbai, I can assure you that you will never dare to write if you were in "Saudi or in some muslim" country.

Not impressed with your writing at all.

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So what feeling is worse? Being the wrong doer or being a victim of someone else's wrong doing. As usual still searching for the right answer.

So much has changed......well not really

Cannot believe how so much has changed since i last wrote on my blog. A nasty accident just a couple of hours later turned my life topsy turvy. Luckilly i dont remember anything and thankfully I'm intact ( well almost intact). But yes life changed. Too much pain, too much love and attention. Too much time, too little to do... I guess I had the best of both worlds.

And now its been a month since I'm back at work. Same old grind, same old routine. Wake up grumbling i have no story. Scan the other papers hoping there's a small line hidden in the pages that i can weave into a tale. And the rigmarole continues through the day. Meet councillors, administration, friends, colleagues and rush back to office to file somthing that hopefully sees the light of the next day. Rush back home only to start fretting over the next days story.. Whoever said life had changed. Nahhhhhhh

I'm here Finally

Its strange how long I've waited to do this. Strange because I didn't even know what i was waiting for. Waiting for the right time. waiting for the right inspiration. But I'm here now. Im part of this space that everyone keeps talking about. Used to feel quite left out. Hopefully now that feeling goes away.
I welcome myself to the Bloggers World